Saturday, May 19, 2007

Katie and I made up tonight. It feels really nice to have a girlfriend to talk to. It has been really hard for me to talk to anyone about my problems in the couple of days. I thought it was because it is just too exhausting to talk about it, but I think it was more because it wasn't the right person. I really needed to talk to a girlfriend, I needed to talk to Katie. And now, as I see something I want to hold on to so badly slipping through my fingers more and more each day, I know that I will never make it through this with out her. I am so afraid. I am afraid that the best relationship I have ever had has been built on a lack of communication. I am afraid that one day the break up will be for real. I am afraid that he doesn't like me, that he never really did like me, and that he honestly doesn't want to date me. I am sick of half-truths. I need the full truth. Yes, I will cry, but I need honesty. I need to be happy again, for my health's sake. I just have a horrible feeling that isn't truly going to go away in two weeks. I have this feeling that this isn't just temporary. This is going to keep going. I want nothing more than to have a great summer full of fun with my man and my friends. --How about it?

Virginia Faith at 1:05 AM

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{xoxo}

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